I highly recommend everyone to check out all the amazing work the IOCDF has been doing with providing resources to the public. From their Town Halls to their virtual support groups. Simply search IOCDF on youtube. A very common but lesser known form of OCD is moral scrupulosity watch below to learn more about the symptoms, treatments and how to recover!
Intrusive thoughts feel so real and intense that it creates an automatic urge to want to get rid of them. The internal dialogue quickly turns to STOP! I can’t handle it, I hate these thoughts, what does this mean etc?! Practicing bringing the thought in and showing you aren’t afraid will make the brain move on and not get “stuck”. An example is you have a thought of something horrible instead of trying to run away from it ask for more, say I want these thoughts and the thought loses its power because you are no longer afraid of it. Aaron Harvey an OCD advocate gives a great example of this when talking about passing a ladder on the street and right away having the thought that something bad will happen now if I go near that ladder, someone will get hurt or I might push someone into it. Instead of being afraid and scared he goes directly to the ladder stands under it allows all the horrible and horrifying thoughts to enter and moves on, and the more you practice this throughout the day leaning into the thoughts and fears the more your brain realizes it can no longer trap you. This is very hard to do but even trying a little bit everyday will significantly decrease the grip OCD has.
Great Article by Jordan Taylor
“I routinely sobbed in my husband’s arms, knowing I loved him so deeply, but convinced my deviant thoughts meant we’d have to get a divorce.”
BY JORDYN TAYLOR AUG 24, 2020SIPHOTOGRAPHYGETTY IMAGES
I wanted to be happy on my honeymoon. Instead, as my husband and I clinked our glass mugs of mulled wine at a holiday market in Berlin, I was tormented by thoughts of all the ways I could ruin his life.
The mental anguish began a few months before we got married. Whenever we did something wedding-related—engagement photos in the park, tastings at the caterers’—I’d get this weird feeling of disassociation, like there was a thick glass wall between me and the rest of the world. I was supposed to be enjoying this. What did it mean that I felt nothing? The question was terrifying. I knew I loved my husband more than anything else in this galaxy and beyond. But what if some secret part of me didn’t want to marry him?
I was so sad and confused that for the first time in my then-twenty-five years, I got professional help. My therapist chalked up my symptoms to my discomfort with the wedding industrial complex, and assured me I’d feel better as soon as the nuptials were over.
But I didn’t. I couldn’t shake the idea that since I didn’t feel pure, unbridled joy throughout the wedding-planning process, it must mean I secretly didn’t love my husband. On our honeymoon, and for the next six months, my thoughts spiraled. I worried I was a sociopath who’d faked every emotion in her life, and I needed to find the answer for certain. Whenever I smiled or laughed around my husband, I mentally calculated how “real” it felt. Whenever I looked at him or touched him, I tried to measure my attraction to him. Whenever I doubted the sincerity of an interaction, I frantically searched my brain for a good memory to cancel out the bad.
Sometimes these mental rituals brought relief; other times they heightened my panic. They occupied my every waking hour, exhausting me. I routinely sobbed in my husband’s arms, knowing I loved him so deeply, but convinced my deviant thoughts meant we’d have to get a divorce. (Somehow, my wonderful husband never once considered divorcing me throughout this ordeal.)
Eventually my therapist saw my constant self-doubt for what it really was: obsessive-compulsive disorder, or OCD. Over the course of a year or two, I learned to manage it with cognitive behavioral therapy, or CBT. But when she first diagnosed me, I was confused. I always thought people with OCD engaged in physical compulsions like organizing and hand-washing to battle their intrusive thoughts, or “obsessions.” I’d never seen a mainstream depiction of my brand of OCD: where the compulsions took place entirely inside a person’s head.
The condition is known as “pure O,” short for “purely obsessional,” and it’s the subject of a new series called Pure on HBO Max (inspired by a book of the same name). When I saw the trailer the other day, saw the main character, Marnie, in mental agony trying to make sense of her intrusive thoughts, I teared up. I was seeing myself. And finally, other people would see me, too.
The first event of its kind, this virtual event has programming for everyone in the OCD community: individuals with lived experience, their family members and supporters, and the professionals who treat them. Running from Friday, July 31 through Sunday, August 2nd, this virtual event will feature 70 talks, 36 discussion groups, and 160 presenters!
I encourage anyone who is suffering with OCD or has a loved one suffering with OCD to attend this years conference!
To register simply go to the link and click the register button in the top right corner!
Relationship OCD is a very common and confusing form of OCD. COVID-19 has really impacted the way we live with more people working from home and layoffs on the rise. ROCD can really take advantage of these situations being around your partner 24/7 is not easy to begin with and this is a perfect catalyst for ROCD to be triggered.
Dr. Stephen Phillipson describes ROCD as:
“It’s a subset of OCD where a person is preoccupied with establishing whether their feelings for their partner are sufficient to maintain the relationship or be in the relationship.
People with ROCD have a tsunami of emotional distress over often more meaningless aspects of their partner, in terms of whether they would be a suitable partner, and so there is a tremendous amount of endless navigation or rumination about the qualities of what they think are correct or justified to continue in the relationship with.There is just an endless preoccupation, there is an endless answer seeking, sometimes even reassurance seeking from one’s partner.
Common symptoms of ROCD involve endless answer seeking and endless rumination about their partner’s qualities, and whether their internal feelings justify being in the relationship. They become very focused on their level of arousal as a proof that the person that they are with is justified to remain with. The probably is, the more that we focus on and put pressure on ourselves to have a very passionate response, the less likely we are to have that response. So it’s common that there is a tremendous amount of sexual malfunctioning or sexual apathy, because of that inverse relationship between the pressure to be sexually aroused, and then the way the brain responds to that pressure to be sexual, it’s very paradoxical.
There can be a focus on a partner’s appearance there can be a focus on a person’s character. I’ve had patients have associations about loved one’s own dating history, in terms of how long did their partner wait before they engaged in certain sexual acts as if that would provide them with reassuring evidence, or uncomfortable evidence about their partner’s character.”
A common thought process for people with ROCD is to check if their significant other has good character or if they are attracted to them. They tend to have intrusive thoughts that try to paint a horrible picture of your partner. This can be very distressing on a relationship, your partner becomes the target of the intrusive thoughts which can lead to a lot turbulence in the relationship. ROCD in specific is very difficult to deal with as relationships by nature are difficult and complex knowing when you have legitimate concerns vrs OCD is sometime hard to navigate. I encourage anyone who is going through ROCD to speak with a trained OCD therapist to help them navigate this subset.
Picture a scene from a horror film playing over and over again in your mind, but this horror film is not any horror film it is about yourself, your loved ones and innocent people. The horror film is vivid with images and words popping up. You are left feeling helpless and terrified and doubting who you are as a person. How could I think these things? Do I want this? Who am I? Will I snap?
OCD wants you to be afraid of the horror film and always be enslaved to its storyline. But just like a horror film the audience knows it is not real, without the suspenseful music, special effects and graphic images it wouldn’t impact the viewer. OCD feels real because of the graphic images, thoughts and things the person cares about. If the sufferer can be an audience member and realize it is not real, sit back be uncomfortable but know that nothing is actually happening OCD will loosen its grip.
Lele reveals her life long struggle with OCD & Tourettes among other mental health conditions and doesn’t shy away from the most intimate details of her battle
Great article by Shayla Love on how to navigate Coronavirus when you have OCD.
One of the best and most effective ways to try and stay healthy during the Covid-19 outbreaks is to wash your hands. Wash them for at least 20 seconds, and be thorough—get all the spaces between your fingers, and underneath your nails. After you touch something, wash your hands again. Then wash them again before eating or picking at your face. Also, carry around alcohol-based hand sanitizer.
Experts additionally advise that people don’t get too close to others who appear to be sick—they can spread virus particles through droplets that will get into your nose and mouth. Be wary of surfaces in common areas, and disinfect those surfaces frequently.
These are evidence-based recommendations, but for someone with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and contamination and health anxieties, this advice can start to veer into uncomfortably familiar territory. It sounds an awful lot like the anxious thoughts they have on a daily basis, even when there’s not a new virus spreading around the globe.
For many people with anxiety and OCD, the news and well-meaning (and accurate) CDC and WHO guidelines can trigger bouts of intense anxiety and compulsive behavior. It can spark intense worries about getting coronavirus, feeling like you already have it, obsessing about what might happen if you get it, cleaning, checking, or experiencing physical symptoms of anxiety: like dizziness, breathlessness, tingling, chest pains, and more. After all, even people without OCD or anxiety are exhibiting compulsive-like behavior: buying out stores of hand sanitizer and canned goods, overstocking on masks that don’t help much if you’re not sick yourself.
I know a bit about this firsthand. When I was a child, I obsessed over whether or not my hands were clean, washing them constantly. After I washed them, I told myself I wasn’t allowed to touch anything, lest I infect them again. I would clench my fists and avoid opening doors or touching tables. If my hands even touched the insides of my shirt, they would feel contaminated to me. As an adult, I’ve also obsessed about getting various diseases, from rare autoimmune disorders to MS to bronchitis—when these obsessions would take hold, I used to sit in doctors offices weekly to try and diagnose what I thought I had.
I’ve been in therapy for OCD for several years now, where I’ve made a lot of progress on not responding when anxious thoughts arise. (Thoughts don’t ever really go away altogether, but you can get better at reacting to them.) Even though I’ve made big strides in recovery, the coronavirus outbreak can bring on a little voice in my head that says things like: A ha! See, I was right that every surface is an infected cesspool that will kill you. And: I knew it wasn’t safe to touch anything, and also you should start showering in bleach.
These outbreaks are serious: There are more than 82,000 cases of coronavirus diagnosed worldwide so far, and almost 3,000 people have died. There are currently 135 cases of coronavirus in the U.S. in 16 states, but likely many more to come as testing for the virus becomes more widespread. But how can a person with OCD manage, when suddenly confronted with messaging coming from all directions that sounds almost exactly like intrusive OCD thoughts?
Understand the reason why it’s so triggering
Covid-19 demands us to pay attention to the concepts of cleanliness and disease. And the advice to constantly wash your hands or clean surfaces gives people more reasons to think about those behaviors, said Jon Abramowitz, a clinical psychologist at the University of North Carolina.
People with OCD are often trying to do the opposite: “T[hey] take their attention away from cleanliness and get through their day acting as if the worries in their head about germs and contamination aren’t relevant,” said Shala Nicely, a therapist specialized in treating OCD. “Then the media and authorities say, actually—this is relevant.”
The CDC can also use words like “frequently” or “often” to describe how often hands should to be washed. This can cause a lot of distress to people with OCD because they can worry about the specific meaning of those words, said Jon Hershfield, the director of The OCD and Anxiety Center of Greater Baltimore. “How do I know that I am washing my hands ‘frequently’ as opposed to every hour or after every contact with a public surface?”
All this attention to germs, hand-washing, or illness can bolster anxious thoughts on those topics, and so if you’re having more of them, that’s completely normal. The trick is to not let it trickle out into your behavior, which validates those thoughts.
Follow official guidelines, but don’t go above and beyond
Of course, there is validity in the need to wash your hands while a virus is spreading, so how to toe this line? Nicely suggests borrowing a technique used in OCD therapy called exposure and response prevention, or ERP. In ERP, a person is exposed to something they’re anxious about, and then tries to not do the response that makes the anxiety go away. For example, not washing your hands after you touch the ground before eating something.
During an outbreak, Nicely said she wouldn’t recommend people to stop washing or sanitizing things entirely, but consider the exposure in a different way. The “exposure” becomes to pick one legitimate source for prevention, like information from the CDC, and follow it—but that’s it. Don’t do anything above and beyond what they advise and don’t listen to the guidelines and rules that OCD starts to set in your brain.
“OCD thinks it’s an authoritative figure on all things having to do with safety, and then it tells you what you should do,” Nicely said. “But I think it’s important to understand that OCD is not the authority on this. It does not have the knowledge to be telling you how to wash your hands.”
To make sure you’re staying within the realm of adaptive behavior, Hershfield said it can be helpful to observe what you’re doing and whether it’s changing over time. “If on Monday I am washing for 30 seconds before eating, but on Tuesday I am washing for 60 seconds, this is something to be concerned about,” he said. Once you follow CDC recommendations, tell yourself it was enough. If thoughts like, did I do it right, are you sure we did it for long enough, or let me check what I cleaned one more time come up—acknowledge them, but then let them go.
Don’t be glued to the news
Coronavirus articles are everywhere, and yes it’s important to stay informed. But Nicely also suggests not becoming too entrenched in the media coverage, and finding what works for you in the balance of being up-to-date versus knowing too much.
People with OCD can tend to be overly informed. “We become experts at whatever subject our OCD wants us to Google,” she said.
Figure out how infrequently you can check the news and still get the information you need without making you too anxious. Maybe it’s once a day, maybe it’s once a week. It could be that the best thing for you is not checking at all, and relying on and trusting friends and family to give you updates that you need to know, like any cases in your area.
“Compulsively checking the news, ruminating over what will happen in the future, or mentally reviewing what you’ve heard about the virus all create opportunities for obsession,” Hershfield said. “Focusing on the present moment, even if that includes being anxious, and working with ‘OK, this is where things are for me right now in this moment’ is your best bet.”
Accept that there is going to be uncertainty
OCD and anxiety are rooted in an intolerance of uncertainty. Ultimately, all exposures in therapy are about teaching a person that they can handle not knowing what’s going to happen when they do something that scares them.
“You can’t see viruses, so it’s impossible to know if you’re 100 percent safe,” Abramowitz said. “People with OCD tend to assume danger unless there’s a clear guarantee of safety; and hearing about the virus every time you turn on the news makes it seem like it’s easy to get.”
That’s why you might be tempted to wash your hands again, or read another news article. Because you’re trying to be more certain that you won’t get it or give it to someone else.
“We feel like if we know something we can control it, but that’s unfortunately an illusion,” Nicely said. “Knowing the current stats about the outbreak doesn’t give a person any more control over it.”
If you can accept that there are a lot of unknowns and try to live with the discomfort, it will go a long way to managing stress during the outbreak.
Don’t be too hard on yourself
All of that is easier said than done. Nicely and Abramowitz said this is going to be an extremely difficult time for many people with anxiety and OCD, and so it’s important to be kind to yourself during this process.
“Say to yourself, I’m going to do the best I can but sometimes I’m going to mess up,” Nicely said. “I’m going to be super anxious and that’s all okay. The other problem all of us with OCD can face is we want to do it perfectly. We might think: I didn’t perfectly follow the CDC guidelines and I should beat up on myself. Instead, be really nice to yourself and say, wow, this is a really hard situation for everybody.”